What do you have that the others here do not?

Not strength. Colette has more, and always did.
Not consistency — you are historically the worst in the room at it and everybody knows.

You have the coming back. Not the falling; falling is common and cheap
and half this room has done some version of it.
The coming back is the rare half, and it cannot be had without the fall,
which means the thing you have been apologising for since the spring
is the raw material of the only thing anybody here actually needs from you.

The Book of the Fallen — Return 66:11