I finally asked the one in the grey shirt what they pull.
Not to compare. To know.

They told me, briefly, and it is more than mine has ever been,
and then they asked what mine was and listened to the answer
as though it were interesting.

Four years of being the loudest thing in the room,
and it took four minutes to learn I had never been the strongest,
and about four seconds to learn nobody minded but me.

The Book of the Beast — Return 34:2