Do not turn this into a performance of remorse. You are extremely good at those.

You have four people to hand who would tell you not to be so hard on yourself.
You would go and get that from them tonight, and it would work,
and nothing would change, and tomorrow you would be exactly here again with better company.

The honest look has one rule and the rule is no witnesses.
Have it at the kitchen table. Have it once, properly, alone, and then go to bed.

The Book of the Bard — Wall 53:4